Silence

"We fill the silence with empty sounds."

Wow, this week is indeed a fantastic. No SW lesson on thursday, no LPD lesson on tuesday. Lessons that i usually hate to attend, i don't have to attend them this week. (Y) That's the best! Monday was boring, Tuesday was the best. NO LPD LESSON, which means i ended school earlier. Supposed to be 5pm, ended up released at 1pm. Headed to Bugis with Zoe for lunch, had Swensens. (Y) Then accompanied her to buy her pants, walked around and i trained down to PS meet baby and sist. Walked around and home sweet home. (:
Today's boring. Lessons were even bored, me and zoe just spent our time in the library reading Mr.Kiasu. (I know it's lame, it's stupid. But it's damn funny.) Today suck, I didn't get to go home with baby. Except that he accompanied me to school in the morning! <: Luv DDT ttvm. ^^v Can't wait, two more days! (Y) I want holiday! I want movie on saturday, baby! (L)

It makes me feel so much of a heart ache talking about these.
In some way, somehow; i get to know that to be a good girlfriend, she must actually do so much in order to play her role well. Doesn't mean you did something good/nice once, it means you're a nice girlfriend. There's way too much things left for me to do... I know i haven't be on my best... I know i can do so much better. I know things will get much better... I know i should learn to be much more understanding... I know i should learn to spare thoughts... I know i should get rid of my bad habits... I know you should deserve someone better... Seriously, fuck and screw myself for being like this. I want everything to get better so much! I don't want to face those situations ever again.. :( I'm terribly sorry to always cause you those unnecessary worries. I'm also terribly sorry to make this r.s became sucha challenging one to you. But no matter what, i promise i gonna go through it with you. We'll still have to be on the battlefield one fine day, i know we'll make it through... I know we're gonna get better (L). Give it a change, joey...