Hesitat-ion

Dearest Ones,
What've I Been Doing(?), What've I Been Thinking(?)
I thought i was supposed to forget everything, As said to myself(?)
Why is it turning the other way round(?)
Am I starting to regret telling myself that(?)
Cause, If i could, I would have done it earlier; Isn't it(?)
Tell me, What's the main point that's pulling me away from that decision(?)
I've been trying (So hard). But it doesn't seems to work it that way.
I'm changing, Did you even realised(?) Infact, I changed.
I'm trying to adapt. Going on strong; Going on every obstacles all by myself.
I've to learn to be independent; And yet. I'm always relying on you.
Didn't you tell me; You'll be there for me though(?)
Where are your words? They seems to go nowhere now.
22th, I'm too tired to go on.
I need a stable pillar, to held me on. You're getting further and further.
I couldn't even find a chance to say hello.
That was our last hello, and i seriously miss it.
Tell me what to do (!!!)
Stop tearing me down like an abandon building.
'm tear-ing, like no one. "You call this love(?)"
Missed, ♥

Ps- YISS, Choir "lilboy" Is CUTE:B